Wednesday

I've made my appointment at the lab for Wednesday. Wednesday will be exactly two weeks since I last tested. Over the weekend I thought I felt symptoms that a period was coming, although nothing has shown up yet. Wishful thinking, I guess.

I'm feeling kind of down today. My pregnant girlfriend sent me an email celebrating the start of her second trimester. I really want to be happy for her, and celebrate with her, and as far as she knows, I am.. but inside I'm dying. Had my pregnancy been viable, I'd be approaching my 16 week mark and anxiously awaiting the all-telling anatomy scan. Instead, I'm anxiously awaiting my test results I'll receive at the end of this week, but as I've said before, those results won't be enough-- I want my cycles back. :(