154.

154. That was my number last week after blood test #2, week #2 (post miscarriage). It's frustrating that the hormone level isn't below 5 yet, but at least it has dropped from the 497 the week before. I'm not testing this week, and instead, I will test next week. I'm not bleeding anymore and have zero pregnancy symptoms so I hope that next week will be the final test.

I feel like my life is on hold. And I feel like I'm waiting for closure on this whole experience. At first, I thought I'd have closure after the actual miscarriage. Now I think I'll have closure when I successfully pass the blood test, but I think when my cycles return is more realistic.