No place to hide.

Friend/Co-worker: How are you feeling?

Ugh, I fucking hate this question. Do I tell them the truth: I feel broken, lost, and completely alone. Like the Grim Reaper paid me an unwelcomed premature visit and stole a part of me holding hopes and dreams for a reality that will never be… Omg, WTF? You can’t tell them that, you sound unstable! I feel unstable! Either way, I can’t risk saying something that will ultimately end with either them or I or both of us crying.. If I say I’m feeling ‘good’, I risk them believing I’m up for hearing a story about their newly pregnant friend/family member/co-worker… and I’m definitely not up for that! Is it socially acceptable to close my eyes and forget they are standing in front of me? Can I act like I didn’t hear the question and jump into a completely different topic? Are they going to want to hug me? If they do I will definitely cry. Hmm.. let’s try..

Me: Fine, how are you?